Give Up

"Give Up" these two words keep on floating in my head.

should i just give up like that.. feeling so sad once more... dun really feel like a Diploma graduate when i am still receiving my fresh graduate pay... unlike the previous jobs, i dun have any sense of job security over here..maybe because of the pay ba... scare of going back to where i started... counting the every cent i have and making that i have enough to spend for the rest of the month.. this few weeks, been asking myself "do i really want all these?".. the perks of seeing stars, the joy of seeing various events

i am really afraid... every step is taken with such caution that i don't even know whether i doing the correct stuffs, having to struggle finacially all over again ... xiang study.. study together with the rest of koyaks... so actually dun really care wad i want to study as long as i get the degree.. guess wad i really want is the degree pay ba...

i dun wan to give up and i dun wan to end up getting wounded all over... tire of coming up with all sorts of excuses to psycho myself..




but i dun wan to end.....
this is life isn't it...